Happy 6th Birthday ..
reminders of your mama when I look at your face
she was 6 too..so happy and full of all the imaginings of a little girl
she had dolls and stuffed animals as friends..
just like you..
then three days after her 6th birthday I had to tell her
“daddy’s gone to heaven”
he didn’t make her birthday party, I don’t know why
we had a fight on the phone
he may have lied
and now the memories
are back again
the box within my heart and soul
I weep for him
and all the times I tried to help
and finally gave up..
“if you die Grandma I won’t have any Grandmas” she said
be still, be still
there could never be enough apologies, there can be no real forgiveness
she was an innocent, just like you
and I would have done anything to protect her