Dreaming of Mom
i dreamed of mom the other night and feel i need to write it down,lest i forget. It’s the first time in four years since her death i think, that she has been in a dream. Like dreams so often are,it’s very convoluted, a house i do not know, but she is in a bed and not so old as she was when she passed. she tells me she has had an accident, i search for something to cover her. the first thing i find is not long enough to cover her bottom and i search and search for the longer robe. I don’t know if i ever find it.
i wonder what the dream means. in reality, there were many “accidents”, the crazy times i would try and race her to the potty,to no avail. She was in her 90’s , and could not help herself. I know sometimes i may have showed my annoyance. I am so sorry for that. After awhile i would just let her go in the bed, she wanted that, it made it easier for her.
Being a caregiver is not easy, but it was the best thing i ever did for her, and she deserved it. She deserved living and dying in my home, in a bed, surrounded by love and song. She was a good mother,and had had a hard beginning, she deserved a better ending.
love you Mom ♥