Almost hit two deer yesterday, they ran right in front of the car, in broad daylight! Thank God for great brakes! I missed them by inches. Guess i’m thinking of that because i am taking the long trek back “home” to visit with children and grandchildren today. The further down i go, the crazier it gets. My good neighbor and friend just brought me over some “gorp” for the trip. I have all my CD’s on the passenger seat in a bag ready for playing. Loud and fast guitars are always good, along with ones i can sing to and be the crazy lady in the car,talking and or singing to herself. Only problem is sometimes sleepiness takes hold of my brain, so the louder the better . Life is always a tradeoff, there are so many reasons why i wish we had never left and so many why i want to go back, all involving family. The man i love ,loves it here and would never return if he had his way. So we have stayed nearly 20 years. People ask me “do you love it here” and i cannot answer without tears welling up in my eyes,as they are now, as I type. I think the answer is there is no answer for me, like alot of things we all go through, alot of choices we make. They just are and then become a reality. The good thing is i can travel still and connect with the other people in my life that i love. I will not dwell on the past today because there are memories to be made, and tonight my eight year old grandson is going to play the violin in a school recital. I will probably cry, I always did I always do at those things, and i really don’t know why.